I’ve been in silent meditation retreat for the last week at Vallecitos in (New) Mexico getting My. Whole. Life. Together. In deep gratitude for this time. The practice and the nature ignited my creativity and I wrote some new poems!
Please feel free to quote/use with attribution to Nijmie Dzurinko.
Family Traditions
Not saying I love you.
Not showing affection.
Working until you drop dead.
Being abandoned.
Being abused.
Watching people fighting.
Addiction.
Hating ourselves.
Hating each other.
Not speaking.
Not listening.
Telling lies.
Keeping secrets.
Dying without knowing
You were forgiven and
You did the best you could.
No-mind haiku
Please don’t ever ask
Me for advice because I
Don’t know anything
Doing Too Much
Sometimes you cannot
Make things better but you can
Stop making them worse
Stories
there’s a man
hitting stone on stone
almost like he’s trying to
light a fire. but that’s not it.
he promptly drops one stone
into a mug of water as if
he’s making stone tea
i have no idea what he’s doing
and i probably never will
like any of us, i make up stories
Breathing
This meditation is my way
Of honoring God
The Awakened Ones
Universal Consciousness
For breathing me
I am involuntarily alive
I can hold my breath but I cannot
Stop it at will
God breathes me and I simply
Pay attention
Pay homage
Thank you for this breath
Thank you for this life
The whole earth and everything in it is good
Starting Over
Who am I
but a series of stories
I tell myself
everyday
in order to remember
who I am?
starting over feels
impossible until
I remember
without these stories
every day is starting over
every moment is
We Need To Turn Dreamers Into Doers and Doers Into Dreamers
organizing
like walking on a path
is a process
so many little ants
like details
seem to be a distraction
from getting where you’re trying to go
but you must be careful not
to step on any because
to do so would be to
extinguish a life
Maybe
Maybe I have done enough
been enough
given enough
said enough – even when they didn’t
want to hear it. maybe they will
look back and say “now I understand”
or not
either way
I can’t keep wondering